Result too good also a bad thing???

面試官員：“讓成績不如你們的學生出國讀書”‧海外獎學金5優秀生落空
Translation à There are 5 students who score fly colors in SPM but failed to get scholarship to study overseas. This is the reason given by the interviewer of government’s scholarship: “Let those whose results are not as good as you all to pursue their studies in overseas”

It’s a big title on today Chinese newspaper (Malaysia). The students studied very hard, hoping to get top score so that they can pursue studies in overseas and achieve their ambitions and dreams, yet they failed to get scholarship and only a hurtful feedback for them “Let those whose results which lower than you to get the scholarship…” WHAT THE HELL (I’m so sorry. I never come out such word but this is really unacceptable)

Although government announced that this year will be 20% of scholarship quota given FAIRLY to those top score student despite races and background. But, the top score students in Melaka failed to get the scholarship. So, should we ask the next generation students don’t study to be top, just to be middle enough to get scholarship.

Friends whose result is 9A1 and 1B3 able to get scholarship to study overseas but a friend whose result is 10A1 + 1A2 failed to get because of her younger age. She was 16 years old as she passed PTS and was standard 3 “jump” to standard 5. I think our friends would know about what PTS is. Government conducted PTS test for few years and encourage those who brilliant to save 1 year of study in primary school and NOW reject people’s application because of people is not 17 years old. Luckily she get scholarship and loan from Singapore government to study in Singapore and she need to work in Singapore for 3 years after graduates. Will she back Malaysia in future? It’s hard to said so because is Singapore provides tertiary education for her instead of her home country, Malaysia.

There are many criticisms towards those who don’t want to back home country for working and contributions. You don’t want give chance to let them go study overseas and now you want them back to contribute their knowledge to you. It’s a satire…

There is an article in Singapore newspaper regarding different country education situation. Malaysia is described as “country which is EXPORTER of talents” Indeed, it is. Those people who never get any help from their home country, yet they get help by other countries during their down time, when they successful, will they contribute to the country which never lend a hand to them?

I hope that Malaysia government take actions in this issue, especially scholarship for non-Bumiputra(s) if they want talents back to Malaysia instead of blaming lack of talents or other country took their talents away.

An advice to a friend ~~

--07 May 2009—

It’s a month working at Sentosa Island for Genting IR Project. I’m starting to get used to new system, new colleagues, and new environment. The most important is starting to get used to 15minutes walking to MRT and stand in MRT like “sardine” for half an hour in every morning.

Yesterday chatted with ex-colleague. Since my resignation, she forced to become superwoman - admin, account, HR, quotation, even sometime boss want her to do sales follow up. She always busy till forget to eat lunch, working till 9/10pm… Singapore is a place which stress on higher education level. She’s a SPM level with 8 years accounting experience. She would have a good future if she is a diploma holder. Her English is quite ok, but not up to boss’s (especially boss wife) expectation. Even she put many efforts on work, but still gets scolded that she simply did the jobs. It’s really hurtful. The worst is that she is the one who borrow money to workers and not the boss. The boss is a millionaire, staying bungalow house (A bungalow house costs at least a million and above in Singapore) and driving a new BMW car, yet he replied to my ex-colleague: “Why you no money???” when she said that she doesn’t have money to borrow to the workers. How funny it is….

If she has money, why she comes to Singapore work??? If she has money, why she is still working with a low salary but always gets scolded like hell???

I feel I’m lucky to escape from the company, but I feel sad and pity for her. Since before CNYE, all of us planned resigned. I’m even prepared resume and cover letter for her. But, maybe she had no confident, she feel that it’s hard for a SPM holder to get a job in Singapore, in such a bad recession. Thus, she stayed in the company.

Since I worked in new company, I see much more things. A big company is really different with the previous small company. It’s like heaven and hell (Please forgive what I said but it’s true for my feelings and thoughts…) For example, all of us get scolded for “low class English” in ex-company. I know that my English is not perfect as other English educated person, but my English still ok. The 6 months working make me feel that my English is very bad and is not even up to secondary school level. During my one month working here, I saw many emails from different companies. Some letter had a bit grammar mistakes and yet people is directors or managers from MNC companies. These peoples’ English maybe not perfect as “someone” but they able to expand their business to global. It’s very “feng ci” that “someone” is able to write a long and perfect even advanced English JUST to reply a few sentence email, but only able to do a small business, and even sub-contractor complained that “someone” doesn’t know how to do site inspection; customers prefer to deal with employee compare to “someone”.

I’m not meant to offend anyone here. I just want to express my feelings and thoughts. Even we are Chinese educated and our Chinese is quite “pro” compare to others, sometimes we make mistakes on the Chinese grammar too. There is no perfect person. I feel that a good employer should care about his/her employee, discover their strength good effort, and discover ways to improve employees from weakness instead of blaming who’s right or wrong or blaming his/her employee is not perfect or always scolded about the weakness and never praise on the strengths.

Anyway, not all of the small companies are bad. I worked in an event company during my university life and the lady boss is a very good employer. Just we are not lucky enough whereby we met such not so good employer. In a positive way, the worst will make we appreciate the better, just like what I appreciate my current environment, everyday go work happily, not like last time didn’t want to wake up for works.

Lastly, here’s an advice for my ex-colleague and those who face same problem as her too:-

Since CNYE, I heard many times that you said “wait…after CNYE I only see how” …“wait, after xxx I only see how”…..I know that you have family burden and scare once you change job, it’ll add more burden to you. But, I’m sure that if you still stayed there, your burden is still the same and there is another burden for you – your mental will be “abused” everyday, de-motivated, and you will not happy too. So, why not give yourself a chance, try to search for new career, and maybe can reduce your burden? I know that maybe recession would hard to get better job. But, there are still companies who want to hire people in recession time. Life is like a game, like a gamble. You will never know that it’s winning or losing until you tried it out. You’re still young, or you want to wait till 40’s, 50’s, or 60’s then only want to find a better alternative?

Lastly, good luck for you =)

Happy Labor Day

First of all, Happy Labor Day to everyone, especially for those who are working >.<

Another long time no updating blog. My working life still the same --> weekdays work, eat, and sleep. Saturday go for movie and try another new restaurant while Sunday sleep & rest at home to charge battery. So, there's nothing I can update in my blog with photos like what i did during my university time. XD

Yesterday went to ViVo City to try a western food restaurant, White Dog Cafe. There were a lot of people queued up which proved that the food are tasty and delicious. This month, I had been to Vivo City many times as my company is near to there.

Since had a lunch with colleagues at Burger King (Vivo City) and I tried a new spicy burger, it's bit oily and maybe I consumed more meat compare to vege, I feel no appetite to eat any meat for dinner. Thus, I just order a chicken soup and a plate of wild mushroom. [ Erm..I think all of my good friends know that I'm a weird person, like to eat tauge and taufu more than meat >.< ] The wild mushroom is really fresh and delicious. I like it very very much XD But.. a chicken soup + a plate of wild mushroom costed me S$10++ , it's more worth to order a main course than mine >.<

Wild Mushroom (S$ 4.00) Like it very much =)

Chicken soup (S$6.00++).. Not oily, a healthy soup

Pork (forget the name @_@..it's pork leg) I taste a little bit, it's crispy and smells good but not suit for me. Anyway, I finish the corn and the salads XD
Lastly, I want announce something here as a respond/reply to comment. I miss Melaka so much, especially my jimui, SKY jie jie... Hehehe... Sky jie jie, I never ever forget about you.You're the best in the world... (hopefully you don't choke when you see this message) XD

mushroom / spider web / fungus

-- 12 April 2009, 8.20pm --

Friday is Good Friday public holiday...I woke up at 9.30am, played "Cake Mania" game for an hour, ate breakfast, watch TVB drama for an hour, cleaned messy room and messy papers for few hours. All my works were done. Saturday worked half day, back home played game and watched movies and sleeping until today. I think I almost become mushroom / spider web ....

I called my mum and said I want to study part-time. Everyday work, eat, sleep this three steps will make me become a real fungus soon. Honestly, I'm not the type of person who follow routine everyday ... Maybe I'm used to hectic life like what I did during MMU time - study, work part-time, do events till 24 hours are not enough to used and became panda bear. Mum said "U ah.. last time work complaint busy and now complaint free..." Hmmm...that's human...won't feel anything when he/she has the thing but will very miss it when the thing is gone...Just like a friend told me that she feel doesn't want bf when had a bf besides her but then feel too lonely when the bf is no there anymore.

I want to study...I want to do investment... I want to earn more money and set up my own business... I want to free from routine working life... There are so many things that I want and I still sitting here, don't know should start from where... Maybe it sounds greedy but that's what I want since small, never change ...

Give me some time and I think I should know ...

P/s: I'm flu now... Really charm... After I said my colleague is very weak since he flu , and now my turn sob sob >.<

I'm too free then suddenly remember to upload photos during trip to melaka as promised to my jimui. Sky jie jie, sorry for the late upload ya =p I very very miss melaka foods... And also japanese, korean food. I can eat as much as I can as the price is considered cheaper in RM compare to SGD XD [ Maybe I shouldn't think about eat anymore as my parents warn me to diet... Cos I'm fat again after come s'pore sob sob >.< ]

Korean Restaurant - BBQ Pork

Korean Restaurant - Dumpling

Korean Restaurant - these are free to refill as many as u want (I like this most)

me & Sky jie jie

Rain, Chris, Siraj, Byee, Neoh, me, Sky at Japanese Restaurant

N3W Job...

Hi friends... another long time no updating my blog since my vacation at Malaysia.

1st, thanks for all concern and support during my hard time. Now, I'm very happy working in a new environment. I'm now working as PA (personal assistant) for a Japanese Manager. Hhmm..my 1st event job during my MMU time was working for a Nyonya boss. Then, I work for an Indian boss and now work for a Japanese boss. Rely multiracial >.< Wonder who's the next boss?? Haha..

Our department in-charge for a 6-star hotel called Maxims Residences for Genting IR construction project at Sentosa Island. I'm the only girl in my department. All colleagues are very helpful and treat me good. AND, there are many good-looking and capable guy in my company. I still remembered that some friends who asked me intro some guy friends for them. Haha... Submit your name plsss, first come first served =p

Another thanks to my dear who helping me to choose this company during my decision making for the 3 job offers. Now I realized why there are so many people want to work for big / MNC company. Honestly, big company's welfare better than small company [Sorry, I'm not meant to offend anyone here, just my opinion =p] .. Every rules and regulations stated clearly in employee handbook. Maybe I had a bad experience with my previous company. At least my new Singaporean colleagues wont look down to Malaysia people =p

Overall...I'm happy working now and hopefully continuous happily for future although reality is cruel hehe..

And for my friends who kept asking me about my dear..Sorry for no reveal in earlier time. I feel to wait for more stable relationship then only reveal. Otherwise will like last time, whole world know and kept asking why when we break. It's really hurtful and tiring to explain to everyone regarding the reason. There is no right or wrong in a relationship. Just let it be naturally come and naturally go if it had to be gone one day. Hopefully this is the last relationship and the only partner who share with me in my future life.

Resting Life in My Hometown - KayTee

--20 March 2009 (Friday)--

Today is my last working day at company. I had dinner with my colleague before i took bus back K.Terengganu. I reached earlier at Golden Mile Tower bus station. The golden mile tower, aka "small Thailand", full of Thailand pubs, stalls, even the newspapers and magazines sold are in Thailand language.

At 9:30pm,I checked in for Konsortium bus. This time I decided to paid more for the bus ticket -- S$50 for 3 seater in Konsortium instead of S$40 for 4 seater in Transnasional. Why??? This is because I encounter big problem whereby I totally couldn't sleep well for 12 hours bus journey and my whole body pain for 2 days during my journey back to KT for CNYE celebration. I surrender that I can't stand for 4 seater bus for 12 hours journey.

I very very surprised and very very excited when see the bus. The bus ticket was stated "S.VIP seater" but the bus that I took is "Snoozer seater". If not mistaken, a single trip from s'pore to KL is costed S$ 46 for "Snoozer Seat". How lucky am I. There are only 18 seats in the bus and each of the seats has its own LCD (HDD player) and a earphone with controller at the right side of the seat. There are movies and songs to choose (chinese, malay, english, cartoon, indian, etc). The best part is the seat is all electronic controlled whereby you can adjust the seat down like a bed by just press a button. That night, I slept well. This is the first time (since mmu time) that I slept non-stop from S'pore till KT and no body pain anymore.

Although I can't read or see anything in bus/car since easier feel dizzy, but I forced myself watch "Hellboy 2" during the first 2 hours of bus journey. Overall, it's "very very" "shiok". Feel luxury, like sitting at 1st class or business class cabin in aeroplane. Unfortunately, the bus ticket only sold for Redang season. In other mean, I forced to back KT by Transnasional bus during CNYE. Sob sob >.< .....

Lastly, thanks to my dear for sponsoring the bus ticket =)

"Snoozer Seat" of Konsortium Bus

each seat has its own LCD (HDD player)

variety of movies and songs...

A kampong gal who 1st time sit luxury bus, busy taking photos X_X

- - 18 March 2009 - -

It's been long long time no update my blog... Year 2008 till now year 2009 >.<

2 more days, I'll be back to Malaysia - Kuala Terengganu and Melaka. 2 more days, I'll quit my current job... Resting 1 week++ and charging full battery before starting a new battle of life.

I've lost and tried hard searching for myself for 3 months... desperate, cried, don't know what to do and don't want to do anything. Really thanks to my jimui and my dear colleague who support me all the ways, especially my dear. I know he very "samfu" and stress working from days to nights, even 7 days. He never moody in front of me, in fact he listened to me, encouraged me, and accompanied me to go through the difficulties.

Sometimes, I felt I'm stupid cried for nothing. I know I'm lack of confidence as I'm a foreigner in a country which different culture and lifestyle.

At first, many said "economy very bad, everywhere retrenched, don't be so silly go resign / find job. Better work and keep silent even been bullied/scold like hell" ... I almost gave up and want to back Malaysia. He never had the same thought as others, he encouraged me and said "there are still companies which want to hire people during bad economy. if you really unhappy and can't take it anymore, just resign and go to find the job that u like. if really no job, go to study and upgrade yourself. Don't worry about the financial problem, I support u"...OK, I just give a try. I sent resumes, without much hoping to get any reply since most of companies want PR/Singaporean. Fortunately, I got 6 interviews and 3 job offers.

I'm very happy. Then, another bad news... s'pore government restricted Malaysian to work at s'pore. There will be 30,000 foreigners to be send back to their home country and 20,000 of them are m'sian. Friends told me that their friends got job offer at s'pore but the work permit was rejected by government. My happiness and hopes all gone during the days, even cried sometimes. My dear kept encouraged me that those rejected are diploma holders, he strongly believe that I'll get my employment pass successfully. At last, my employment pass was approved on last monday. He said " see....told u...cried for nothing...." >.<

"There will be always a sunny day with rainbow after a rainy day".....He's right. I should believe myself.

Gonna to miss my old colleagues. They treated me so good, taught me a lot of things, even bring me go try nice foods... Thanks to my dear tammy jie jie, uncle loh, and supplier mr.tan hehe. Tomorrow will have a dinner gathering with them.

I will be working as an administrator for Genting IR project at Sentosa Island. Hopefully everything fine and OK...

My dear m'sia..I'm coming back loo.. visit my cousin - ah feng, vincent, samson ; and my little bro - edison [ all christian names sounds "sen" = =" ]

my cute little cousin - vincent

me v cousins during CNYE at kuantan

my new look - curly hair & dye hair (1st time dye hair in my life) =p